by Ginic on Wed Jul 30, 2008 12:51 pm
Sorry, haven’t been on in a while, so I just saw this post…
I can totally relate to not having a clue where God is in a situation. Back in December, my dad had a heart attack and a stroke. It didn’t look good for a while and there was the possibility that this was a prequel to a much larger stroke/heart attack. For weeks the possibility of getting THAT phone call hung over my head and I remember so many times during that season of praying “I just need you to BE here. I KNOW you are here but I need to FEEL You here.” There were no lights from heaven and Roma Downey did not turn up to walk me through it, but I made it through with my faith intact which is a bigger miracle than healing sometimes in my opinion.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’ve been through times where God was silent, but that doesn’t mean He wasn’t there. We all go through struggles and seasons where life sucks and it’s ok to be there. I once read a book called Second Guessing God by Brian Jones (great book by the way) and something the author’s mentor told him at a rocky time in his life really stuck with me. He said that even though you feel like you’re standing on a beach and the waves are coming and washing the sand out from under you, when the last grain of sand is washed away, you’ll realize you’re standing on a rock. That really put things into perspective for me. Paul talks about standing in Ephesians 6. He talks about preparing yourself with God’s weapons and protective gear so that when the fight comes, you can stand. Sometimes standing is fighting. Sometimes being still and trusting God even when nothing makes sense and you don’t think you care anymore is the hardest and most rewarding battle.